Today was not a good day at all. Connor and I are on a "break" or whatever you call it... I broke up with him because i find myself not knowing who i am anymore. I know it's hard to understand why i can't just be with him right now, but that's only for me and connor to know. I'm really upset.. I just took him home. I faked a smile the entire way there, just to show him that i can be happy, even in the worst of times. I love him a lot. Even though we're teenagers and supposedly don't know anything, or have a lot to learn. I feel like i've learned a lot just by being with connor. He is such an amazing person. And anyone who will ever get the chance to experience that is the luckiest girl, because he is so sweet, so considerate, and so loving. he is the greatest person i know. he is my bestfriend.
My heart is slowly shttering, the more i think about how it's really over, and he's not mine anymore. i need time myself, i want to work this out. But not right now. It's going to take some time, and yes it will hurt like hell in the process but in the end it'll all work out for the better, either way.
“God puts a certain person in our lives for a reason, and whatever reason that God had in mind for putting you into mine… I don’t mind… I’m just thankful HE did.”
I am so in love with you Connor Nishijima. <3
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